Today was tough. I went to bed exhausted last night (well, more like early this morning) but couldn't sleep and spent most of the night tossing and turning, wondering how--and if--we'll make it through the next four years. I know there are many, many things to worry about including undoing all the progress we've made in women's rights, gay rights, health care, and gun control. Not to mention an increase in racism and hate crimes, but the thought that was foremost on my mind was, "Please god don't let him start a nuclear war."
It felt strange and surreal to go work today and have to be polite and pleasant like nothing has changed when all I wanted to do was go to bed and hide under the covers for the next four years. (My job requires me to work with the public, though I'm sure some of them were just as upset as I was but just weren't showing it since it would inappropriate to rant about the election to a stranger, or in the case of our regulars, a casual acquaintance.) I managed to make it through, but it was such a relief when the work day ended.
I'm not sure if I'll keep up with National Blog Posting Month this year. I'm not in the mood right now to squee about tv shows and write book reviews like I was planning. I can't even bring myself to watch Designated Surivor tonight because right now it's just too painful to watch a fictional President who is honest and compassionate and genuinely cares about doing the right thing, even if he's not always sure what that is.
Of course I don't intend to completely stop watching tv, reading books and manga, or writing fanfic. I am signed up for Yuletide, and don't want to default. Right now it's hard to feel enthusiastic about fannish stuff, but I hope that I'll be able to find some comfort in them. I'm sure I'll start posting about this stuff again at some point, but right now I don't feel like forcing it just to meet some arbitrary deadline.
I'll end with Jim Hines's blog post Yes, I Am Afraid
, which is addressed to people who have voted for Trump, some of his family and friends among them. It's thoughtful and moving, but I fear the message will be wasted on the people that it's aimed at.